Writing to myself

There are many types of people with different ways of thinking and perspectives. A fact that everyone knows, I guess. I am going to write about a happening that occurred to a friend of mine which his dad is the main character and the story is about. This is a real story, felt the urge to say that. Upon hearing it for the first time, I felt a huge amount of respect towards the person.

Before that, ill ramble a bit. I guess its all part of growing up. You (“you” referring to me) meet people, learn about them, get to know them better. I have this interest to learn and assume what’s going thru their mind (not everyone though especially girls, ha-ha). It’s not really impossible to know how their mind works. Just that my guesses are always wrong even when the person is the simplest minded person. Point is, with low mental ability and the unpredictable behaviors of people, one should always ask and not assume (referring to myself again and I learned it the hard way; a girl told me that huhu). I actually read it at my friend’s dad’s office, No, A different friend.

So, here it is a few years’ back Mr. Tom (my friend’s dad) was diagnosed with a certain disease. I am not sure what disease but that doesn’t really matter, what matter is The way he dealt with it. It was to me very manly, I’d say. If I am still in my teens, he’d be my Malaysian Idol. After knowing that he had this disease and needed surgery, Mr. Tom told his family that he had to go away for a few days for some reason, I can’t recall and so he went away. After a few days he called his family and only then informed them about his condition and that the operation was a success and that he’d be back soon. That was it.

Some what it appears that his ways were kinda selfish but when you put your mind into it. He didn’t want his family to worry about him. But then again, that was just too complicated at least for my mind. No matter how normal/typical one may seem, there is times that everyone acts their own ways for their own reasons. I am not referring to my friend’s dad referring to the last sentence. Speaking in general, I was (yoda?). ermm, I forgot my point. There was none to begin with.

Changing subject, Words if assembled/placed carefully in the right form/situation made into phrases/saying can become really powerful and influential, (which I am really bad at). Phrases like. “When you laugh, the world laughs with you .When you cry, you cry alone”. Another example “it’s not that I wanted to live in darkness. It’s just that I was raised in darkness”. This is the best one, “there probably isn’t any meaning in life, but while you are still alive u can find something interesting that you want to do”. The last one, my favorite, “I am still alive, that means, there is still a reason for me to live”. Most of them diambil from Naruto (126) he he. There are plenty more of those, just wanted to give a few example and I am pretty sure you’ve got the idea already.

My point is, even a dumb ass like me can come up with powerful phrases/saying like that or at least steal it. Perhaps it does make sense but some of them aren’t entirely true. If it’s a positive one then we could probably learn from it. If it’s confusing and doubtful then you might want to think twice. “kata oreng melayu”, “buang yg keruh amik yg jernih”. This could be why most religions ask their people to learn and be wise, so that they won’t be easily fooled or influenced with. I am quite sure about this one. I am not trying to sound smart, just speaking through experience and accepting my flaws. It’s kinda weird that I am actually saying these things to myself to remind me that I once thought about things this way.