~Happy Birthday~

I used to love you…
With all I got,
Alas! All I got was but a dot,
So I understand why,
Though after all these years,
For some reason I’ve no idea why,
In all the girls I’ve come to know,
I keep looking for you in them,
And you never came,
So as of for now,
I don’t foresee loving the same again…
It feels as if love cannot take me to where I got,
The way your eyes light when they met mine,
The helplessness of your face as if you were utterly dependent,
It almost felt real,
Yet when I think of your love,
I can’t help but think if it was real,
Now, don’t worry I am not hung up on you or anything,
I also remember the reason why I hate you,
Despite all your perfections,
I’ve no idea why,
You turned disloyal,
I saw u as a pure loving person,
Cute and innocent,
And...
Though I didn’t know and when I knew,
 I didn’t want to know,
That you, you were also someone else,
I called you mine all the time,
And when you beckoned, it made me whole,
Now clearly it was only in my mind,
Even now when I unknowingly call for you,
You’re in the hands of a different kind,
All along I was playing games in my mind,
Thinking there will be a shimmering light…
Well never mind,
Now you’re married and I know you’ll be fine,
You’re a survivor and you’ve always knew better,
I thought I’d be with you forever,
And now I know I could never,
Now I don’t know if I can love like I did you ever
After all that,
I hope your face always brightens up with a smile and your eyes shines bright with delight,
For I never used to love you,
I still do.