This was a poem I read somewhere. I posted something similar to this before though they aren't the same..

"One day a man tempted an ignorant boy

With his money to safeguard against him

So he told him, bring me the heart of your mother boy

And to you I’ll give gold coins and pearls

So he went and sheathed a dagger with her chest

And the heart he took out and went back the way he came

Though because of his excess haste, he fell

And so the torn heart fell and rolled as he stumbled

The mother’s heart called him while being covered with dirt

Son! My beloved! Are you hurt?

And suddenly even though the voice was very compassionate

It was as if the wrath of the heavens have fallen on the boy

And he unsheathed the dagger to stab himself

A stabbing to become an example for those who heed examples

The heart of the mother called him saying, stop your hand

And do not kill my heart twice in the same place,

Stop your hand and do not kill my heart twice in the same place"

Which Friday?

It was the Friday before the last Friday or the one before it. I had postponed this entry for so long I don’t remember which Friday it was. It was a Friday though.

 The slave had to come to work early; He left home close in the wee hours of dawn. As soon as he neared the highway around 6.40am he was hit by a surge of surprise. What he saw made his insides churn a little. The highway he was on was already jammed so early in the morning. People were already rushing to work. Aslam thought to himself, “What in the worId is going on?” He said whilst feeling a little sad inside, for some reasons. The sadder part was he wasn’t exactly different than the hordes of sheep’s.  Then he said, “Well bear with me whilst my thought scatters. How much time do we spend getting to work, being at work and coming back from work? How many years of life had gone? What have we learned and gained? Look at me” he said.  “It takes me more than an hour to go to work and come back from work. I am still lucky because we get to take the company bus and you know; get to nap throughout the journey, if one chooses to do so at least. Travelling on my own to work if I were to drive it will cost more than a thousand ringgit each month.” He whispered to himself, now in the bus while some of his colleagues were on their laptops busy working.

Everyone is now travelling in one direction (not the boy band) the one that presumably promotes stability, wealth and happiness.

How much time and effort, turned into dust, we however remain aghast, what is this meekness, this sheep like adherence. Existentialism, So much power one has of himself? When the simplest act we are dependent on other things; the directions are wrong, depression has sprung, the pain it gobbles up the mind, the soul, disrupting the decision making, the shallow sheeps unable to look beyond the laws of the shallow and selfish society. Time spent in order to buy more things, to pay off debts high as kings, to show others I have a job, I go out during the day, come back looking tired at night surely that can only mean conformity and adherence to the laws stated by the society, Success!

Having said that, the thing that keeps me going or keeps me in peace despite the occasional visit by mr. Depression is a balanced life one where I try to divide wisely and concentrate on all aspects of my life especially on spirituality and not superficiality. I wake up early in the morning not thinking of worldly things and I go to sleep not thinking of  any shallow thoughts/dreams or least try. Perhaps we shall learn from history and look at the people or the civilisation before us who have passed away. What are the things that really matters? I guess I am in many ways, depends on how you look at it, fortunate in many ways therefore should constantly be reminding myself to be grateful.

I end with this verse:

 “The Reality,  What is the Reality, what will make you know what the reality is!”

    

The Promised Future

Ever since we were kids, we were told to look-out for the future. Therefore while we began schooling we were told to study for the future, while we got bad grades, they said you should work harder for the future, they then said, what do you want to do in the future? Seriously, what is all this unnecessary pressure? 

The race then commences, from getting into a good class to getting into a good college, university, field etc. All for the promise of a bright future that is capable of providing stability, recognition, a wife and a life of cherish-able future! Hence we sacrifice our time, wealth and our lives for this promised future. We ignore, mistreat and wrong others; Nay! We have no time for others! We are too concerned for our future; we forget the hands that fed us, mistreat our parents simply because they are a liability for our promised future. 

This worldly abode has changed the hearts into cold hearted creatures. Finally as we began earning on our own, we continue prying into getting a more wonderful future, it starts off with a 9 years debt for a car that shouts out, success! As if that’s not hefty enough we sign up for a 20 year old contract for a house, you know, for the future. 

We then sail down a different journey; a long journey spent paying off debts for the future. All this, whilst ignoring and destroying the bigger home, Mother Nature. We are so short sighted; we cut down the mountains and grow new houses, destroy the eco-system and buy eco-friendly air fresheners. Have we forgotten Mountains encompasses diversity of species, flora and fauna, it contains minerals, water, wood, timber and food. Mountains protect us from strong wind and are an important influence on the climate changes. Mountains also provide freshwater for more than half of humanity, and are, in effect, the water towers of the world. Mountains also stabilize the earth and prevent earthquakes.

Still we tear down mountains so that we can develop buildings for the future, for the people who are chasing their bright future, to be enslaved as they are in possession of their new houses for the future. By the time they pay off their debts by enslaving their present future, who knows what will be left of their future?

Worse still the self is ignorant of the soul and has no idea of the heart and mind; too busy fulfilling the pangs of desires. 

Worst still we have no idea over the creator, too consumed of our worldly future and our endless desires while the society continues to consume mankind’s future.