Janguary

Well I am not quite feeling well today. Ergo I relax at home. Though there is not much food available... After raiding the fridge, I found a quarter of left over birthday cake, my brother’s. I took a big chunk of it, I don't really like cakes but then I was hungry, you know what they say, ‘hunger is a hunter’. I am not sure if I am just making that up. I also found a jar of cashew nuts hidden at the end of the fridge's compartment. I ate the cashews out of spite. Now I don't feel too hungry, now I just hope I don't get fat. 

Anyways knowing that I have some house chores to do have made me lazy and unproductive. Therefore I went out and took some pics, you know to lose some of the guilt for not conforming to the mundane, repetitive chores. I am pretty sure I'll regret it but who cares, I'll have to attend to them sooner or later. 

Oh my work place has shifted to Nilai, I have to be on the company bus approximately 7.30 every morning and reach home around 8 pm. I would like to brag about the burden and the getting used to the new routine. Then I was reminded of others. It is pretty common isn't it? Spending long hours traveling to work, spending long hours at work, spending all the money you've earned on paying off debts and what’s available of in the name of stress relief and keeping sane?  On second thoughts aren’t we getting used to enslaving ourselves to banks and society's expectations? What else is new? 

It is necessary to keep life somewhat balanced, you know keep it balanced to your own ability. It might be trying and exhausting but to me keeping life balanced is pretty significant. One has to be spiritually, mentally, physically and financially stable. That's my opinion and something that I envision or you know just being hopeful for. After all I am getting old, and I am old enough to know, you know…stuff.

I've been spending too much money on plants, flowers, fishes, aquarium, stuffs for aquarium...I was assisting my uncle on building our own fishpond. It took us almost 4 months to complete, you know since it was just the two of us and we could only work on the weekends. It feels nice though; having it in the house...not exactly in the house but u know what I am saying, right?

After getting the pond done, I wanted to do this thing called ‘aquascape’, ‘planted aquarium’, or well there are few more names for it. Although, I am pretty sure I messed it up. Fishes were dying, the water in the tank looked dirty and I am not exactly good at landscaping apparently.   

Anyhoo, I think I shall nap a little while I still can. Enjoy the pics.

 

 

Happy New Bleh!

An empty…no I should begin with something more positive. Happy New Year everybody! I do try to sound enthusiastic at times. I have been watching Gaki No Tsukai… I should learn to arrange my words better. Nah, on second thoughts I shouldn’t be too serious. I have always been watching the aforementioned show what I meant to say, I watched the latest one, the 2013 one. Without subtitles mind you. It was 6 hours long and I enjoyed every minute of it. If there is one reason to anticipate the New Year, this would be it. Every few minutes I would catch myself snickering at the computer screen as if I had nothing to do with the world. So yea, the show is sort of an escapism and very much so entertaining. Not for all though I’d add.

I also just finished a book which was the autobiography of APJ Abdul Kalam. It was impressive; I liked the childhood, education and poetic parts of the book. The work part not so much. Maybe because I didn’t feel the patriotism involved in the plot or it could be that I felt that I don’t love my job enough to enjoy other people talking about how much they love their job and how much passion they have for their career. Yes, bitter indeed. Yes, I know it’s the wrong attitude.

I am pretty much bored. Yet I am also feeling quite good for I am free and no one is bugging me. I hope I didn’t jinx myself. Oh let’s talk about resolutions…I am pretty sure it was the same as the year before and the year before that. Though, I’d like to fill my tiny yet congested garden with more plants and flowers. You know because I am all flowery and stuff. The irony.

I feel like I’ve lived for too long to be excited for another year. It’s all about surviving, adaptability and seizing opportunities, at least in this context. I am still trying to balance all the aspects in life as to become a proper being. You know from physically, financially, mentally and spiritually. I believe that a good human being is a well-balanced human being.

I always think that upon writing something and upon adding the letter, ‘I’ I appear so full of myself and conceited. Am I really that self-reflective or in other words so insecure or….I don’t know, again I shouldn’t be too serious nor should I care too much. Though I still would prefer not to appear as like a person who thinks the world revolves around him/her. You know, because I dislike those people. I hope I don’t have to learn about myself as to how I have the same traits of the people whom I dislike. Wouldn’t that be funny? In an un-funny way? Ha-ha

I bought an ice cream for someone yesterday, the person only took a bite and then gave the ice cream back to me. Oddly enough I happily finished the ice cream and yes, it was delicious.

I like being alone most of the time…I don’t think that’s true. While I enjoy the company of me self, I enjoy others too. Only that I am quite picky as to whose. You know, as you grow older one has possessed the ability to most of the time differentiate who are worthwhile and who are not. Also I think I keep on forgetting on how thankful I should be for being granted many-many good friends from different backgrounds and different ages. Again, I should be really thankful for having just a few best friends who’d have my back when I am in need.

p.s. I just got back from one of the big bosses office. What happened there wasn’t very nice. People were bickering. The cause was as usual pride and arrogance. Not a good scene and quite demotivating. Let us hope we become people with true sincerity and humility. It is I think one of the most important and difficult of art/form one could wish to achieve and strife for in one’s life.

That’s enough ranting. Domo-arigato.