To Err




Too focused on the outside, he overlooks the treasures inside, for it has been said whence one has accepted his state and condition, the unfair situation, the good luck and the lack of it, one gathers understanding and through that understanding a sort of wisdom. The underlying problem is we try to find blame when no one should be blamed, when everyone should be blamed, when everyone should be blaming himself instead of blaming others.

The problem is, it is difficult not to care of what other’s think especially when you were raised in a place filled with judgmental human beings. The despicable act of judging grows on you. The point being conveyed is when you stop thinking about judgmental people; you cease to be a judgemental person. Judging is a disease caught by the sick trait of the environment.

Constantly judging the self, his intention and his objectives on the other hand is a whole different dimension. When one concentrates on his every intention, he becomes aware of his mistakes and weaknesses instead of the weaknesses of others, as a consequesnt being more conscious of his being and condition. It is not easy looking at the self from the within. It is not easy to restrict desires all the time. It is not easy always studying the intention on every single thought, speech and action. Sincerity is questioning every move, speech, gesture and intention is almost extinct.

The remembrance of spiritual teachers teaching about sincerity comes to mind. They don’t only speak of it but live it. Looking at the way they live their lives and the internal strength they extant convinces one more that these are gifted beings. Sure to the kings who reign the world, they look like insignificant beggars. However the beauty of character displayed through sincerity portrays what true virtue is.

On a more random note, the part of life where a fate is decided in whichever household it is born into suffocates the mind. Though being more and more aware of one’s limited intelligence and comprehension; a realization comes to mind, it is the community, society, the people that judge, stereotype, classify, degrade and divide. On and on, generation after generation, time and time again, the tarnished system keeps consuming each man’s soul for generations and generations, time and time again, on and on.

 Men are naturally attracted to physical wealth and prowess though excessive love for it has changed and shaped the mind-set of mankind…hence as a result mankind has inherited these values and have all become trapped victims to a transgressing, selfish society.

However, the goal is to draw close to the pious and the people who have achieved sincerity, the ones blessed with wisdom.  Although the world might look at them unkindly and tauntingly, they constantly strive hard for the community, to not be neglectful to the soul. These are the very few who live with what they have and try their best to not prioritize physical wealth. Surely they deserve some respect?

After all we are just humans, weak and fallible, we live for a while and we are forgotten even before the final farewell, the once producing well is now dry and abandoned, it is better to be conscious of the self than to spend life for the recognition of human trolls. Most men are not wise they've continue to disregard the soul that lay beneath the soil. May we be granted the strength, will and the courage to stand against the tides—for the wealth of the soul is a wealth that is whole.




Today


This happens occasionally and it happened again this morning, a car from a different lane, knowing that I was on the lane still drove on and almost knocked into me. Making me swerve into a different lane, fortunately the driver on the other lane noticed and slowed down his car. The driver in his huge car acted as if nothing happened and just drove on in spite of my honking and insistent glaring. They never bother, to them here is a motorbike getting in their way.  

The key is when an individual is calmer that is, he is to understand the state of the world and where the rich step on the weak and get away with it. Anger doesn’t solve anything. The anger of a poor person only troubles himself and not others. Acknowledging the state of the world and understanding how it works will get us another day to survive. The world does not serve the poor, it oppresses them. Yea here I go again, being bitter and spiteful, you say. No I am not. I am just saying it as it is and I am not angry. I was angry that the driver didn’t care for a life and I was angry for being weak… and after realizing that there is no way for impartiality, I rode on.

If only the poor didn’t stick up for the rich and stood up more for the poor. It would’ve made at least some difference. I am grateful that I am still in one piece. I got lucky. Fellow friends, understand how the world works, accept your destiny, and most importantly work effortlessly on enhancing your spirituality; for in inner peace lies all kinds of ease and in enriching the soul one discovers the key to calmness. Let us be more accepting of who we are and pray to be people of understanding and with loads of control over our temperaments.

My teacher once told me, “Don’t fight for yourself, leave that to God. However, fight for the rights of others.”


CTea


The Chinese tea,
Given by the quiet old man,
The ignorant poured all the leaves in one mug,
Unaware of the value of the dried leaves he dropped,
The leaves obviously too much for one cup.
A little dizzy,
Not to the extent of uneasy,
No, not queasy,
I feel so friggin sleepy!
This has got to be one of my toughest entries,
Attempting to write whilst the head is being silly,
Seriously, the head is hefty with the feeling of heavy,
Was it really the tea?
Some floating hours went by,
The old man was there again,
The ignorant saw him again,
He showered his praises about the leaves he gobbled,
“Come see me tomorrow”, he said
“Bring a container with you this time”, he said
More hot Chinese tea to gulp in,
The head had mixed feeling,
Though at the same time felt, “this might be interesting.” 

Provrb



I was watching a clip and in this clip, the speaker said these words. I found it to be pretty awesome hence the posting. I hope it is as meaningful to you as it is to me.  

“The one who is always trying to discover the unknown, he could not even discover himself, he who captured the rays of the sun, yet he failed to fill the void in his life. The one who illuminated the entire world with lanterns failed to realise the darkness within his own heart, if there is darkness in one’s heart, what good is the light on the outside.” -Urdu proverb-

Significant Much



My hair, gets stressed when the air around becomes too humid. I am trying to grow my hair long again. It’s been a few months since I got a haircut though I don’t know if I’ll be able to persevere and you know have it longer. My goal is to see the outcome of my patience. I am obviously optimistic but at the same time, at the back of my head I can’t help but fear it will only be a mess. Imagine being patient for months only to be shocked by the result of my persistence and endurance. Only to be introduced to bad hair.

I woke up tired and tremendously sleepy; nonetheless I was also proud for being able to function efficiently despite the discomfort I experienced. However, as soon as I was in the bus, I got comfy and as usual planned on getting some deep/nice sleep. The driver, despite being behind schedule by being slowed down by the passengers, drove quite well probably because of the amounts of complaints his boss have been receiving.  I didn’t take the proper driving for granted. I slept through the journey for almost a full hour. I woke up satisfied and my day today seems brighter than usual.

It’s almost lunch time and as per my usual fashion, I go out and eat early. Simply because there’ll be less people and more food for the stomach to stomach. Here I am back from lunch, I sat with some students and our conversation not so surprisingly moved to girls hence I had to pass down my wisdom and gave them advises regarding girls and relationships. Of course they were bitter!

I just read an email from work stating that we have to work this weekend. No! Unlike what you’re expecting I shan’t whine and act as you’ve predicted. I am sleepy.

As usual well more than usual I’ve been buying stuffs that I don’t really need and as a consequence have been losing a lot of the money I really need. Please contact me if you feel like donating some of your money. Thanks.