Richer, please...

Isn't it pretty simple? It’s not impossible to comprehend, it is actually pretty obvious, no? Let us just ponder for a second; bear with me, don’t be biased yet, just let your thoughts flow a little deeper. Forget about society and its mandates. Think about it, the richer an individual is the more selfish and careless he is about others?

 Why do we look up to such people, worst still why do we aspire to be like them? Let us look at the present and let us also look at the pages of history; these people we look-up at and aspire to become are known for their arrogance and evil deeds. Still we think this is success and this is happiness.

If it really means that, then why are the rich after achieving all the riches in the world, still not happy? Worse still they become greedier, evil-er and more arrogant and inhumane towards others? Yet, still I have the desire to gain more…such is the weak, easily swayed human man.

There is something very wrong with us, with our society and with the world; that we aspire to become the worst kind of people in existence...We aspire to become the likes of Pharaohs.

Ialmost forgot, this was one of the main contributing factors of this spontaneous/unplanned entry. Do watch it and perhaps you too will be enraged and then saddened and after that feel utterly hopeless...

  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=egtKx24dat8

Young Man

Time and time again

Like the needles on a clock

Almost like a mechanical device

We walk by life

We continue to age whilst in a daze

Feelings of numbness clench the senses

 Life in the past,

 No matter how wounded and battered the memories

Is now history only the pain of it subsists,

They then in some cases change your individuality,

You’re not who you used to be

The stage that we withstood

The stage we misunderstood

In the cage where we came of age

Still we remain in continuous daze

A chase for happiness that leads only to loneliness

We gaze and captured the beauties in life,

Though it gave us some happiness,

The feeling of that joy eventually fades…

Who knew one would mature and come of age

He ages in stages, physically he changes

His hair are white, knees are weak,

Yet mentally and spiritually he speaks,

The language of adolescent kids

Unlike his physical growth, spiritually he depletes

He remains with the same dreams that he dreamt of when we was in his teens

Stuck in a trap and perpetually sinking, like in a quicksand, he is steadily pulled in

Now old, he thinks he has conquered wisdom

Possessor of knowledge and a ruler of kingdoms

Though when he is alone by himself

A realization comes to mind

It says, “All the time you’ve spent,

What has it yield?”

In spite of all this he continues to waste his time

He regrets for not doing more

Yet he persist in misusing his time

The world, a temporal stage

So real, so surreal,

Seemingly eternal, obviously temporal

As he grows in age, death too draws closer

Health seem more obscure

Time seems more difficult to procure

Desires and gaining honour seems like the only doors

All these things he bought and got bored

Bought and got bored

Now that he’s old,

He thinks of how he should’ve ploughed his life

In a more meaningful manner

As to remain calm and with peacefulness in all matters

Though he is full off regrets

Hope yet remains there

Sadly old habits too remain

A young man today,

Old tomorrow

Drebar Selfish

Malayan drivers, mostly comprises of two kinds—one is either too careful or too relaxed the other is too rash or too rushed. Both of them have one thing in common. Both are selfish in their own ways and selfishness causes only negativity and dreadfulness.

 Shallowness is noticeable when we keep on changing lanes when we all are heading towards the same direction. Instead we need to constantly feel like we are moving even it means merely zigzagging. We end up slowing down the traffic flow. I am not just blaming others, I am one of you and that puts my mind and heart under severe distressfulness. Though seriously, what is with this selfish mentality, whereby others don’t matter, “as long as I am fine the rest don’t matter.” Which parents thought their kids this form of belief?! Which school refrains one to look ahead and train them to remain shallow and all that they can see and think off is only their own self-importance?! I am not sure whether the previous sentences were questions or statements?

Having said that, of course we need someone to blame, hence I’d generalize and blame the society, although I don’t think anyone deserves more  blaming than our society, except the ones who might’ve shaped the society itself. It pains me when I see the huge roads being clogged at dawn. These expectations and desires that make people sell their lives and live in lifelong debts... Again, it feels like my skin being peeled, (that’s a little too dramatic, sorry about that) to once again have this connection with the masses of people, that I too am with the burden of having to pay off monthly debts for years to come. In order to do so, a job has to always be secured and in order to have a secure job; one has to serve his master and company day in and day out. Such is the cycle.

Nevertheless, having being all pessimistic. It is of importance and greatness for a human being to behave in a selfless way, you know because we live in a selfish community that moulds people into becoming self-interested beings. Again to make life balanced and not only try to enrich oneself the selfish way i.e. the material way, one will surely be happier. Though we don’t see it because we are shallow beings, we can’t afford to look forward. There are walls surrounding us, making us only see a few steps ahead.

Now that I am done whining, I’ll probably go look for something else to shop/buy to fulfil my insatiable desires which would probably satisfy me for a day or two or few mere minutes until I figure out what other things to buy to make life seem more meaningful, such is the fool.

I close with a verse from the scripture:

And they say, “Our hearts are covered against the affair you call us to, and there is deafness in our ears, and there is a barrier between us and you - therefore mind your own business, we are minding ours.”

Some

Nah, not so many changes, personalities and characters will they ever change? Maybe a little though the main traits, they still persist and endure. It has been a while and there was so many things going through my mind, so many things I wanted to put in writing that made the feeling of self-importance enter the mind hence again and again I lost interest.  Though seeing that I am transforming petty thoughts into words, I’ve succumbed.

I feel like posting up pictures of plants and other greens that dwells around my house. I lost my camera though; I misplaced it I don’t know where. I have another camera but the charger for that camera is also nowhere to be found.

You know when you decide on something you want to do rather passionately and follow through your interest and you end up spending your time and money and effort? Well I did that and early this morning it all paid off quite the unexpectedly. I invested in buying some pricy fishes of which I hoped they’d grow big and prosper which will then lead me into prospering. In-spite of my empty hopes they all died due to the water pump failing. It will also be helpful to bear in mind that these are sensitive fishes to begin with. Yes I am a little upset, realizing that my ‘long term’ investment perished after a couple of days, literally. As I would and almost written on the details of the terrible way that led to the expiry of my fishes and the collapse of my venture, I prefer to leave the horridness of what transpired within my now, broken heart. Having said that, I am going to save up, buy the same fishes and once again sail through and face the unpredictable ocean-s, so to speak.  

I have more orchids now. If you know about orchids (not that I do) you must’ve heard of ‘tiger orchid’ so I am hoping it would flower soon. Apart from that I have a few wild orchids (apparently they are not so easily obtained hence gives me some kind of selfish self-satisfaction that leads to me thinking of myself as a cool person).  

The cats at my house are multiplying fortunately due to some good caretakers, the house doesn’t smell of cats and to the cats’ good luck, fortunately I am not one of its caretakers.

The news, sometimes I read the news although it is designed to shove your sheep-like mind into believing what it wants you to, even then the news are dreadful and makes me lose all hope in the world (not that it matters). Hence every time I get bored I’d browse through the headlines get depressed and watch something pointless on utube.

Time. I am more and more aware of how time flies and how fast I am ageing. I never in my life imagined I would age to this age, I suppose subconsciously I believed I would just remain in my 20’s. Life is sad and a major part of life is accepting and moving on. Accept on move on whether you like it or not. What a sad thing existent is.

I’ve always love being alone with myself unperturbed. I like aloneness; though at the same time, I love company and the people around me but in the next room.   

These are just some thoughts that goes/ going through my mind. I should write more poetries, they’re more vague and at the same time pretty. Speaking of pretty, I have decided to grow my hair long once again. We’ll see how that goes and just so you know not all of my investments end up in a tragedy or with multiple deaths.  

I like waking up early in the morning although sometimes it can be quite challenging but every single time it is very satisfying. You know, due to time moving too fast and the ageing process. Waking up early makes life more meaningful and my days more meaningful too, at least that’s what I think. Here’s to hoping I wake early for the rest of my days and emphasizing more hope on sleeping early.

I think this much should suffice. Grow more plants and be less selfish and self-centred, I know they mean the same but I was trying to come up with a replacement for the word dumb.