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“Damn it, I over slept.” He said to himself. He shook his head in mild disgust and at the same time getting himself out of slumber. “I thought that it would just be a brief nap but I over slept perhaps the weather, the weather was just too endearing, it wasn’t the best way to enjoy it but the coolness and the air was just too appealing.” Satisfied with his explanation he got up and walked down stairs and within a couple of minutes he was done with his lunch. “I am bored of this food, help me.”

“This is all I seem to do now work and eat. I hope I’d manage before I turn to a slob.” He seems to be saying this quite often nowadays. He then remembers something then says; “it’s better than having none” About the food.

“He shakes his head in disappointment, as if what I did was a tremendous mistake and it was too much for him to bear. It was his job to deal with the troubles I create unintentionally and make me better, it was his job. Instead you shake your head. Why’d you do that? Why did you get yourself a job that after a few moments you end up shaking your head in disgust? You are sadder than the people who complain about their jobs. For the people who complain, most of them only complain and die complaining.”

People often get into disputes, with each other no matter what the situation or their relationship. It’s perhaps inevitable. Man is a selfish creature and more if not nourished with basics. “I almost lost my temper, I know that I shouldn’t and so far I’ve been disciplining myself and so far it seemed to work. Until that one day when I almost lost it but I didn’t, because I had thought.” After a long pause of thinking, “ do something that you don’t hate, it’s still ok if you don’t like it but if you start shaking your head like an idiot, then its time to get a new job, a better life maybe.” I hope that never applies to me. Please don't.

I am sorry if my way of writing seems to fancy or seemingly seems like I am trying too hard. This is how I feel and this is how I feel like doing it right now, later on if I feel like doing otherwise, I’ll do otherwise.

“When I am sick of work, sick of work, and tired of the world. I read things similar to these to make feel balanced and less like a loser, I don’t know if its healthy but it’s time worthy, And he said; “Of all ridiculous things, it seems to me that the most ridiculous of all is to be busy in the world, to be a man who is prompt for his meals and quick about his work. So when I see a fly perch on the nose of a businessman in a crucial moment, or see him splashed by a wagon which passes him in even greater haste or a roof tile falls and kills him, then I laugh from the bottom of my heart. And how could anyone keep from laughing? What do they accomplish, these busybodies? Aren’t they like a housewife who in her agitation when the house was on fire saved the fire tongs? What more do they rescue from life’s great conflagration?”

“Patience is virtue, impatience is true?” do not take this one seriously I just felt like writing it. Even if it’s true it’s never the thing to act on. On this many would agree, I agree.

He is a follower of blind faith, he follows, he’s worse than a doubter because he does not comprehend. A scary fate awaits one who follows in blind faith. (I would like to elaborate but I don’t think I am in the position)

“The doubter is like a whipped top, he remains like a top on its point only as long as the blow of the whip continues. He cannot stand upright by himself more than a top can.”

You tell me that I am insecure. I have to be that, if I don’t, it’ll be me forgetting my grounds and where I come from, it may never apply to you but it reminds and applies to me all the time. If I am not insecure, I am forgetting myself. Perhaps someday I may find ease and peace. I hope.