Absorbednya

I have been consumed, a little too consumed. It is well worth it though. This will continue at least till next week and then hopefully I won’t be leading this exhausting/ hectic lifestyle. I like being occupied but this time around; it is a little overwhelming. You probably are thinking, ‘what can this self-absorbed ass be so consumed with’? I would say but then I don’t feel like talking about it right now. It’s also good that I still contradict myself.

Ramadhan is beckoning, I have a resolution, I’d like to be more of a muslim than a malay this coming ramadhan. We’ll see how it goes.

One might assume after observing my interest and thirst of knowledge, faith and religion related matters would make me a more pleasant and a sweeter person? I would like to say it does Ha-Ha. In reality I still dislike you and others…wait, Let me rephrase that; in the present I am more self conscious, in a good way—as in I tend to see more of my weaknesses and failures than looking at other people’s. That’s good right?

Apart from that…well I am still refraining and fighting myself from insulting people and insinuating/emitting dislike or other rowdy thoughts. You must be like, ‘Who does he think he is’?

I found a solution though, I stay away from people I dislike and I try not to get to know others. It is when I get to know someone, I start to judge them, disrespect them and insult them inwardly. Don’t worry I do the same with myself. You must still be thinking with more aghast this time, ‘Who does he think he is’?!

I have work to do but I had this urge, this feeling to update my blog. Yeay! To adhering to feelings and emotions. Yes, to me bowing and having feelings and emotions have their way are at times bad…especially if it has to do with misguiding one’s focus and wasting one’s time.

My boss is coming in…and so I will commence with work and pretend to be a diligent worker who loves his routine.