Dream!

I am afraid of time moving a little too fast. The fear of getting older with so little achievements and good deeds…it makes me feel bitter and my existence salty, very salty. A part of me is telling me to be grateful for being fit and looking youthful.  What the actual…?

I keep fantasizing of having a land close to my house. And in this land, I would build a river of sort with a tall waterfall. Obviously, the land is quite widely spread, well one can dream, no?

Also, I will build a spacious gym which is eco-friendly/energy efficient with great air flow and plenty of trees. I would call my Muay-Thai guys and ask them to relocate there. I would do the same with my Silat guys. We could probably earn some profit from there, to keep things going.

I will also build a surau and have a small madrasah. You know to maintain balance and to have peace of mind. Have daily classes for the community, would be beneficial too.

The place would be akin to a clean forest, filled with huge trees cleansing the atmosphere. There should also be stones that are mountainous, basically I’d like to emulate nature. I would grow vegetables as many of them and as tidy as can be. They too will be given to the community or the needy.

Of course, I’d also build a place for us to live in. It wouldn't be as grand but it I would have it built sturdy, cause I am paranoid.

Speaking of fears, one of main fear is not having water. Apart from having an artificial waterfall/river or a pond. I would dig a well, have a pump that generates water from the ground, have multiple water tanks and install a wastewater system so the wastewater can be used to water the plants etc. I worked in a biological wastewater system company before, it seems possible with enough money that is.

Seeing that this is a fantasy, finance shouldn't be a problem.

While I am at it, I might as well attain some super-powers akin to superman. Though, if I did, I won’t be a hero. I would probably hunt down and kill the 1%.

On another note, 

I am imagining living in harmony and staying fit while working out and working in the farm.

I will also have a large chicken coop, maybe raise some goats and cows. Perhaps by doing so. One could be self-sufficient and stop being dependent on this vile society.

That is a dream worth having.

Though having super powers akin to Superman…I shouldn’t be worried about water shortage for me of my family?

This fantasy is getting out of hand.

I should stop now, I can continue later.