'The Present'

Once again he saw himself walking down a street. He had an ‘easy fit’ jeans on and a white color T-shirt which fitted him quite well. And a pair of sandals that aided him with his journey. His hair was messy because he decided not to mess with it nor add chemicals to it that particular day. That also meant not combing it, for he was afraid that if he had did that, might’ve notice some flaws and be tempted into putting stuff on his head. He wasn’t a fashion victim but prioritized comfort. It was a subject of importance to him.

 

Cars were hustling and bustling all around him and people were going about with their own businesses. He didn’t really have an exact direction to head to. Looking at all these people somewhat amused him and he felt a little envious towards them. Although their objectives may not be as clear as how their actions perceive them at that moment. Nonetheless the last thought did nothing to him, doing something is certainly better than not doing anything. Heading somewhere with a purpose is better than not having one, no matter how self deceiving and far fetched the objective is to the self.

 

His short days of holidays were spent almost wholly in a café located nearby -- in the company of his friend. Despite it being a little expensive, the services it offered were equivalent to its price. They sat there for hours and hours making their money well spent. Wasting their time and just sitting in, indulging in the cozy couch and in the soothing environment and looking at people.

 

Having said that, today he was by all himself and although he didn’t have a destination, he was already headed towards the café. Noticing that, he thought to himself that he should try going to the cafe alone and see whether it would feel the same as it did when he was with his friend.

 

“Good morning, Heippo” the person at the counter said as he walked in. He smiled a little and almost heavily put up his hand in reply to her greeting. He got his cup of drink and sat at an empty spot on the soft sofa. There weren’t many people around at that hour. “It was much more relaxing and peaceful.” he thought.

 

As soon as he sat, despite the cozy environment and the tasty drink he was having. He started to feel bored, one for not having a friend to converse with and secondly for not being able to pour his thoughts out. His feelings sank and he felt insecure and was now looking around to see if there were people staring at him and if his uneasiness were apparent to others.

 

The waitress who greeted him before walked towards him with a full smile and dropped a few reading materials on his table. She said, “There you go” looking pleased with her self and left him before he could say thanks.

 

Thankful to the waitress he schemed through the materials and picked one that he was unfamiliar with, it was entitled, ‘The Present!’ He noticed that it was a monthly magazine that gives its readers an update on what’s going on in the world at the moment.

 

He went through the index, looked at it for a moment and skipped it. His hands then stopped at the first article. After going through it, he moved on to the next one and the next one after that. He only stopped momentarily if it was about something he never heard of before or anything that was interesting enough to catch his attention.  Here is a little summary of what he read and how he perceived it to be.

 

Title 1: ‘War’ – it elaborated on how they hated and how they regret with loses of life but they continued killing and driving people out of their homes because it was inevitable in order to uplift peace.

 

Title 2: ‘The Economical Collapse’ - this one was about the hundreds of thousand of people getting retrenched all around the world, its effects and on the government being overthrown. And finally how everyone will eventually we affected by this phenomenon.

 

Title 3: ‘Natural Disasters’ - This one tells of the places being inflicted by natural disasters, the amount of deaths and the suffering of the people.

 

Title 4: ‘Global warming’ – this article started with how the North Pole was getting warmer and the change of climates in several countries around the world. It finished of rather pessimistically than the normal optimism that still gave a tinge of hope. It stated that it will be just a matter of years until something catastrophic happens.

 

Title 5: ‘Time’ – compared to the other writers, this one had his mug on the side of his article. He had this weird looking smile on his face, probably because it was fake or he was trying too hard...to smile.

 

Heippo was browsing through this one just like how he did with the other articles, however, this one caught his attention and he started to read it with proper dedication, “it is just the start of the New Year and I was still listing out my new year’s resolution only to realize that it was already February. What the hell, I questioned myself. How is this possible?

 

Everyday I feel the torture and the pain of being at work and being with people with no intelligence but with power and money. How is that a fair trade? I ask myself, my friends and even God. No one bothered to reply including myself. Back to the subject, I go back at home and sleep it off, trying to forget the place and the people. Only to realize that I am already, once again sitting here, trying to go unnoticed and hope that I remain invisible from their wicked eyes.”

 

He finished off his article with this, “It feels like time is chasing on to me as fast as Hussein Bolt. At this rate it would be a matter of seconds till I realize and say things like, ‘I am already too old for this shit.’ ”

 

Heippo had enough of that magazine, for some reason it scared the living hell out him. The word ‘apocalypse’ appeared in his mind several times -- followed by some disturbing images that he had related with the word apocalypse in his head. He looked at the magazine and wondered who would actually pay money to read this kind of stuff.

 

As he laid the magazine down on the table he began to hear a couple of voices bickering near him. Just a few feet away at the entrance of the café, it was what looked like a quarrel between a father and his daughter. The father was holding an ice cream cone with what appeared to be a long colorful ice cream stacked on the cone. His daughter, who was around 5 years of age, had her hands on her hips, and was looking at him angrily. She said with watery eyes, “how could you do this? I thought that the ice cream was supposed to be for me!!” She shrieked.

 

Looking at her unresponsive father…which added to her annoyance was licking and enjoying the cold colorful desert. She then said, “No wonder my soul is becoming darker and darker each day”. The father then looked at her and said, “Oh my baby, you’re finally maturing. I am glad that you’re finally taking your first steps into maturity.” He smiled at her genuinely and continued, “Well this is how life is, you know?” he said rhetorically. The girl now out of anger stepped on his shoe and caused him to slouch forward in pain. The daughter then jumped to reach the ice cream from her dad’s hand. Heippo without any shame was staring at them as if he was watching a movie and to his surprise, she managed to get it although in the process…spilling half of it in on the floor and on her dad’s shirt.

 

The father now smiled at her and congratulate her, “good! Move on with that hatred and fight in this cruel, corrupted world in order to survive” with that he patted his daughter’s head and they both smiled at each other and started walking out of the café’.

 

Heippo noticed that the waitress looked amused as she eyed them leaving and as soon as she noticed that he was looking at her, she smiled at him. ‘It’s time to leave.’ He said to himself. He returned the smile, nodded a little and had enough of what the day has already offered. The magazine, the weird father and daughter made him quite dizzy. He finally had a direction to head to, he headed home.     

 

 

 

 

 

The Protagonist

As expected, naturally and innately,

One is born to question and to seek precision,

His purpose of existence, 

To obey or to not,

To adhere, to decipher or to go back to bed,

 

Here is where you contemplate,

Listen not to what others say,

Decide and not take the easy way out,

For it says, “Truth standsout clear from error.”

 

Thus claims the main protagonist,

Now the antagonist, perhaps a male chauvinist,

Resident of someone’s residence,

Existing and dwelling in mere existence.

 

Spineless, limbless without a backbone to remain standing,

A creature of dissolute, like weak and frail,

Standing still with hands held high,

Hoping for a change, eagerly waiting for divine intervention

 

Coming of age, reaching pubescent,

Of teenage life and adulthood,

For what lesson it brings but pain and immorality,

Feels like living in prison, hurt then followed by restrictions.

 

Destined to shine, to standup high,

To place the forehead unto the ground,

With ultimate peace, overflowing with gratefulness,

Yet it seems so far away, and ignorance comes and takes its place.

 

What is this meaning of wanting to impress,

Why the need to be remembered?

Who is it that you truly live for?

Confused and lost, at the gates of heaven.

 

Of growing up and knowing people,

Heartbreaking and a life changing lesson,

Selfish, greedy, encompasses jealousy,

The ugly heart gloats while worshipping,

Put on a pious face to hide their true face.

 

Always ready to get to you,

Worse than the devil that whispers into you,

Each with his own, well planned goal,

Slave to their causes and presumed happiness.

 

For this an expression, a form of opinion,

Coming to transpire, to give an idea,

“The soul that sinneth, it shall die,

The son shall not bear the iniquity of the father,

Neither shall the father bear the iniquity of the son”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Penguin

“In 1935, if you wanted to read a good book, you needed either a lot of money or a library card. Available, but. Penguin, then a director of The Bodley Head.

 

After a weekend visiting Agatha Christie in Devon, he found himself on a platform at Exeter station searching its bookstall for something to read on his journey back to London, but discovered only popular magazines and reprints of Victorian novels.

 

Appalled by the selection on offer, Lane decided that good quality contemporary fiction should be made available at an attractive price and sold not just in traditional bookshops,but also in railway stations,tobacconists and chain stores.

 

He also wanted a 'dignified but flippant' symbol for his new business. His secretary suggested a Penguin and another employee was sent to London Zoo to make some sketches. 

 

Seventy years later Penguin is still one of the most recognizable brands in the world. The first Penguin paperbacks appeared in the summer of 1935 and included works by Ernest Hemingway,André Maurois and Agatha Christie. 

 

They were colour coded (orange for fiction, blue for biography, green for crime) and cost just sixpence,the same price as a packet of cigarettes. The way the public thought about books changed forever - the paperback revolution had begun.”

                                                                                        Excerpt taken from Penguin’s Myspace

 

 

This is a form of my showing of appreciation towards ‘Penguin’. For enabling those who can’t afford to buy expensive books to be able to acquire quality books for so much less. Recently I bought a Dostoyevsky’s for a very reasonable price and couldn’t be more pleased.

 

I would also like to add that the Penguin’s objective as a noble one and a very vigorous one especially towards the younger, upcoming generation. And lastly, hope that it’ll never perish and continue in helping others read more quality books that cost the same as a pack of cigarettes.

 

 

 

Again

 

It seems that I am facing difficulties in thinking of something else to write about, apart from the ongoing war. I wasn’t going to write about anything concerning the war but then I guess I got so disturbed at the ignorance and arrogance of some people that I fail from not expressing my thoughts.

 

For instance, this kind of statement is especially most nerve wrecking, “If only they would stop firing rockets at them!” Have you no idea that there’s an occupation going on? It also means that, foreign people coming to your land, chasing you out from your home, houses, demolishing them and claiming the land theirs and after that built their own buildings and towers to keep a look out for trespassers and from any form of rebellion. This in other words is also called ‘colonization’.

 

 But, while normal people who are supposed to fend for themselves and their families against people who oppose a threat to their safety and future--revolt and fight for their home, land and pride are called terrorist. I will shut up if you under those circumstances let the occupiers do as they wish with your land, home and family members. If you’re a man it goes to show what sort of a man you are.

 

The Zionists however are saying that they’re defending themselves against terrorists. How can one defend itself, whilst at someone else’s land?

 

I guess people tend to forget or are completely ignorant about the occupation that has been going on and what now seems inescapable and too mighty for defeat.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pain


                           Picture taken from AP Associated Press Via Yahoo

Take a look. Now take a closer look. It appears that a man is in pain, in distress and without any sign of constraint or wanting to constraint himself and another man, possibly a relative or a friend trying to console him. Look at their expressions. Feel anything?

 

The description below the picture stated that, “A Palestinian man reacts after hearing news that his mother has been killed in an Israeli shelling in Beit Lahiya

 

Take another look at the picture again now, can you, by looking at the picture above have an idea on what this man is going through, what this man is feeling and what's going on in his mind?

 

Pain, grief, loss and desperation can lead to many things among others. Without an adequate amount of faith, will eventually lead to hatred and cause terror. That’s the plain, logical truth.

 

One can keep on bashing, bullying and terrorizing others, thinking that they're planting fear in their enemies heart, but do they not realize that they’re only evoking it unto themselves? Accumulating hatred, and finally erupting volcanoes. 

 

However, the main purpose of this entry is because of the reaction I got after reading the description stated above. My heart stirred when I read it and could only imagine what the man was going through.  The other information’s are just based on my logic.

 

 

Free Hug/s

 

 

I have this uneasiness lurking in me, added with fear, paranoia and insecurity. That is me in employment. My heart sinks and my limbs tremble whenever I see someone walking past my desk or whenever my bosses lay their eyes on me. My eyes continuously checking out and eyeing its surroundings, my ears constantly awaiting for the faintest of footsteps or the voices that are tainted with darkness in them. My mouth reciting prayers as to be as far from their evil intentions which they bring to life so nonchalantly as if it was their purpose to contribute to the miseries in life.

 

 I see myself as a mother trying to protect its cub from predators, except I don’t really have anything to protect, because I am already exposed, hurt and vulnerable.  I should see myself as this weak and helpless creature that has no other choice but to abide and bow to their wants and needs. I see myself as this open target, where u can throw darts at, shoot arrows at or just say something without being nice.

 

Oh, what have I become if not a wretched, menial creature. For one day, if it comes I shall look at them with all my might and power and treat them with fairness and kindness to show them what power is and hope that that it’ll annoy them and make them feel unpleasant.

 

Phew that helped in letting out some steam. Of course I exaggerated and made it more ‘colorful’ and yes dramatized. I should do this more often.

 

Moving on to a different subject, it is the New Year. And no, I do not have any new resolutions. My previous resolutions were too perfect and (obviously) unfulfilled; hence I am sticking to them. I heard someone saying that despite being the New Year we are still stuck and surrounded with the same assholes. Though not entirely true, I am going to agree with that.

 

Have a good New Year and if you don’t like what you do to at your job and what you do to earn a living, then you have my sympathy and a hug, yes a hug or more hugs depending on ‘you know’.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Little Things One Can Do

Recentyl, I’ve been reading a lot about the Gaza, Israel bashing. Frankly I find it surprising how some people who aren’t Jews supporting the Zionist regiment. On another note, I understand that this is not a new occurrence. This war has been going on and repeated in the course of history and now at present.

 

Writing about this and showing where I stand is amongst the many little things I am able to do to show my support. Here is the account for Mercy Malaysia, where you can contribute, donate: CIMB 1424-000-6561053 or call  03-22733999.

Ignorant people, as usual without any notion of a proper understanding, not even armed with a proper background check or even a simple case study and most evidently without the ability to see and comprehend what they witness in the news and newspapers. Though some being biased it is not difficult to see what’s going on.