Shame

Second day of the year. This unease, I wish I could just walk away from this place and not having to worry about my actions. Alas!

Last night a young lady, told me to grow up and said that everyone faces these issues. I agreed with her, but it didn’t make me feel any better or did my fear subside.

I feel fatigued and weak. Though I am partly grateful that so far, I am still functioning well.

Another day is about to end. Though the few remaining hours at work makes me hope for a quite night.

I think of my beautiful plants at home. Looking at them grow nicely makes me feel good inside. I also can’t help but think of the rats that have caused a couple of my plants to die. I want to pulverize them.

I feel fatigued and embarrassed for being at this age and achieving so much, such a shame.